Thursday, June 10, 2010

Sins of the Mother by Victoria Christopher Murray

It is time for a FIRST Wild Card Tour book review! If you wish to join the FIRST blog alliance, just click the button. We are a group of reviewers who tour Christian books. A Wild Card post includes a brief bio of the author and a full chapter from each book toured. The reason it is called a FIRST Wild Card Tour is that you never know if the book will be fiction, non~fiction, for young, or for old...or for somewhere in between! Enjoy your free peek into the book!

You never know when I might play a wild card on you!


Today's Wild Card author is:


and the book:

Touchstone; Original edition (June 1, 2010)
***Special thanks to Mallika Dattatreya and Ashley Hewlett of Touchstone/Fireside Publicity Simon & Schuster, Inc. for sending me a review copy.***

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:


Victoria Christopher Murray always knew she would become an author, even as she was taking an unlikely path to that destination. A native of Queens, Victoria first left New York to attend Hampton University where she majored in Communication Disorders. After graduating, Victoria attended New York University where she received her MBA.

Victoria spent ten years in Corporate America before she tested her entrepreneurial spirit. She opened a Financial Services Agency for Aegon, USA where she managed the number one division for nine consecutive years. However, Victoria never lost the dream to write and when the “bug” hit her again in 1997, she answered the call.

Victoria originally self published Temptation. “I wanted to write a book as entertaining as any book on the market, put God in the middle, and have the book still be a page-turner. I wasn’t writing to any particular genre – I didn’t even know Christian fiction existed. I just wanted to write about people I knew and characters I could relate to.”

In 2000, Time Warner published Temptation. Temptation made numerous best sellers list and remained on the Essence bestsellers list for nine consecutive months. In 2001, Temptation was nominated for an NAACP Image Award in Outstanding Literature.

Since Temptation, Victoria has written six other novels: JOY, Truth Be Told, Grown Folks Business, A Sin and a Shame, The Ex Files, and Too Little, Too Late. She was a contributor to the first Christian fiction anthology, Blessed Assurance and the Contributing Editor for the Aspire Women of Color Bible published by Zondervan. All of her novels have continued to be Essence bestsellers. In addition, Victoria has received numerous awards including the Golden Pen Award for Best Inspirational Fiction and the Phyllis Wheatley Trailblazer Award for being the pioneer in African American Christian Fiction. In 2008, Victoria won the African American Literary Award for best novel (Too Little, Too Late) and Female Author of the Year.

In 2008, Victoria’s first novels in her Christian fiction teen series - The Divine Divas – were published. “I was concerned with what our young ladies were reading. I decided to do something about that – give them stories full of drama, but with a message.” The Divine Divas has already been optioned to become a television series.

Victoria splits her time between Los Angeles and Washington D.C. In Los Angeles, she attends Bible Enrichment Fellowship International Church under the spiritual tutelage of Dr. Beverly “BAM” Crawford and in Washington, D.C., she fellowships at Metropolitan Baptist Church under Dr. H. Beecher Hicks, Jr. She is also a member of the Long Beach Chapter of Delta Sigma Theta Sorority.

Visit the author's website.

Product Details:

List Price: $15.00
Paperback: 379 pages
Publisher: Touchstone; Original edition (June 1, 2010)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 141658918X
ISBN-13: 978-1416589181

AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:


New York, New York November 2009

“Love Mama!”

Jasmine scooped her toddler into her arms. “You do love your mama, don't you?” She laughed.

Mae Frances rolled her eyes as Jasmine smothered her son's cheeks with kisses.

“Don't make no kind of sense, Jasmine Larson,” her best friend said. “Teaching that baby to say that.”

“What's wrong with him loving his mama?” But before Mae Frances could answer, Jasmine stood straight up and scanned the crowd that packed the new mall. In just seconds, her gaze locked on her daughter, crouched in front of the pet store window. “Jacqueline!”

The girl's brown curls bounced when she jumped up, startled, and skipped back to Jasmine and Mae Frances.

With a firm hand, Jasmine grasped her daughter's wrist. “I told you to stay where Nama and I could see you.”

Jacqueline bowed her head. “But Mama,” she sighed, “I could see you.”

“Well, I couldn't see you, so why don't you sit down for a moment and cool off,” Jasmine said as she wiped the thin line of perspiration that dampened her daughter's hairline.

“I'm not hot,” Jacqueline protested. It was the look on her mother's face that made Jacqueline wiggle onto the bench next to Mae Frances. With her eyes on Jasmine, she buried her head on the shoulder of the woman who, years before, had been nothing more than a friend of the family, but was now so close to the Bushes that Jacqueline thought of her as her grandmother. When Mae Frances put her arms around Jacqueline, the girl glared at Jasmine as if she never planned to love her again.

Jasmine shook her head, then her eyes widened when her rambunctious daughter rolled her eyes.

No, she didn't.

Jacqueline had never done that before, and Jasmine opened her mouth to scold her, then just as quickly changed her mind. When her daughter peeked back at her, Jasmine rolled her eyes. Jacqueline giggled, and Jasmine laughed, too. But when Jacqueline moved to get up again, Jasmine stared her back down.

Jacqueline pouted and bounced hard against the back of the bench, but the silent tantrum didn't faze Jasmine. She planned to let her four-year-old (or fourteen-year-old, depending on the day) sit and think about how she'd run off.

“Are you ready to go home?” Mae Frances grumbled.

As Christmas Muzak piped through speakers above, Jasmine realized this trip to the mall wasn't the best idea she'd ever had. But how could she have missed this day?




The new Harlem mall had been open for only two weeks, and this was the first big shopping day of the season; she had to make her own contribution to Black Friday. Now as she looked at Mae Frances and Jacqueline--a set of ornery twins, with their arms folded and their lips poked out--she wished she had thought this all the way through. Because if she had, she would have come alone.

“I wanna go home, too!” Jacqueline exclaimed, as if she was in charge of something.

Looking at her son, Jasmine shook her head. “You don't want to go home, do you, Zaya?” she asked, calling him by the name that Jacqueline had given to him two years ago when he had been born. Hosea had been too difficult for her to say, and no one wanted to call him Junior.

“No, no, no!” Zaya followed his mother's lead before he toddled over to his sister. “Yaki, Yaki, Yaki!” He called her by his own made-up name.

Mae Frances sucked her teeth and tightened the collar of the thirty-five-year-old mink that she loved. “Don't make no kind of sense, the way you manipulate that boy.”

“He's my baby. He's supposed to be manipulated.”

“Get away from me, Zaya!” Jacqueline exclaimed, and pushed the toddler away.

“Don't do that to your brother,” Jasmine scolded.

Jacqueline stood up, put one hand on her side as if she had hips, and, with the other, squeezed her nose. “He! Stinks!”

Jasmine sniffed, then hoisted her son up into her arms. “Your sister's right.” She grabbed the diaper bag from the stroller and reached for Jacqueline's hand. “Come on, we've got to change Zaya's diaper.”

Jacqueline folded her arms and sat back down next to Mae Frances. “I don't wanna go.” With a pout, she pointed toward the pet store. “I wanna see the puppies.”



“We'll see the puppies after,” Jasmine said, still reaching for her daughter.

“Leave her with me.” Mae Frances put her arms around Jacqueline. “No need for her to have to go with you when I'm here.”

Jasmine's hesitation waned after just a moment. “Stay right there next to Nama,” she demanded sternly. “And then we'll go see the puppies, okay?”

Jacqueline nodded as she scooted back on the bench. With wide eyes and an even wider smile, she blew Jasmine a kiss. “I love you, Mama.”

Jasmine laughed. Her precious little girl--always the drama queen.

Inside the restroom, Jasmine twisted through the long line of waiting women, and as she made her way to the changing station, her cell phone rang. But just as she pulled her phone from her bag, it stopped.

She glanced at the screen. “That was your daddy,” she told her son as she laid him on his back.

He giggled and reached for her cell.

“No,” she said, taking it from his grasp.

His laughter stopped. His bottom lip trembled. His body began to shake. And before the first shriek came, the phone was back in Zaya's hands.

“Love Mama,” Zaya cooed as he pushed buttons.

Jasmine laughed. God had blessed her with a drama queen and a drama king.

That thought made her pause in wonder. Who would have ever thought that she--Jasmine Cox Larson Bush--would end up in this place? She--the ex-stripper, ex-man stealer, ex-liar, cheater, thief. The jealous girl who'd done everything she could to sabotage the success of her best friend, Kyla. The unsatisfied wife who'd badgered her first husband until he'd finally left her.



The lonely woman who lived to tear husbands away from their wives. There was hardly a sin that she hadn't committed. But that life, those abominations, were far behind her.

Today, she was a proud wife and mother--the first lady of one of the most influential churches in the city. Today, her life was filled with leisure--it was difficult to call the work she did as first lady and the time she spent with the Young Adults Ministry a job. Today, each of her needs and every one of her desires were met. And she had a Central Park South apartment, a closet full of endless racks of designer clothes, and an upcoming New Year's family vacation in Cannes to prove it.

This life was God's reward for her having turned away from her transgressions. As she glanced at her reflection in the mirror, her lips spread into a slow smile. Bountiful blessings. All she could say was, “Thank you, Father.”

Seconds later, Zaya was back on her hip, her cell was back in her bag, and she was back in the mall. But then, her steps became measured as she moved toward Mae Frances. Her friend's head was down as she pushed buttons on her cell.

Jasmine's voice was as deep as her frown as she yelled, “Mae Frances?”

She looked up. “Did you just call me?”

Jasmine let the diaper bag slip down her arm. “Where's Jacquie?”

Mae Frances waved her hands. “She's right over there. With the puppies. Did you just call me?”

Before Mae Frances had finished, Jasmine's eyes were searching the crowd. With Zaya still in her arms, she pushed through the mass of men and women, arms filled with packages, children close at their sides.

“Where's Jacquie?” The question trembled from her lips to a young boy in front of the pet store. “The little girl who was here--where is she?”



His face was pressed against the glass as he answered, “She's gone.”

There was no time to question him further. A woman, two giant steps away, grabbed the boy's hand.

“Didn't I tell you not to talk to strangers?” the woman admonished as she dragged the boy from the window.

Jasmine's eyes were wide as she spun around, clutching Zaya to her chest, searching the space around her. It had been only a minute, but terror was already crawling up and down her skin.

“Jacquie!” she screamed through the holiday din.

She tried to keep herself in check as she gripped Zaya and barged through the pet store's doors. The stench of the animals did nothing to cover the fear that was already surging from her pores.

“Jacquie!” she shouted. She kept telling herself that this was nothing: Jacqueline had just wandered off.

Pressing up one aisle, then rushing down the next, she hunted through the crowd.

“Jacquie!” she yelled.

Jasmine grabbed a pink-apron-wearing teenager who was crouched down in front of the cages. “Please,” she said to the young man, obviously one of the store's employees. “Have you seen my daughter?”

The blond spiked-hair boy glanced at Jasmine and then looked around the store, his expression telling Jasmine that her question didn't make much sense to him. “There've been a lot of kids here today,” he answered before he returned to feeding the kittens.

“Jacquie!” she screamed one last time as she rushed back through the doors.

Outside, in the middle of the passing crowd, Jasmine turned slowly, exploring each face, searching every space.


“Jacquie!”
Her distress went unnoticed; the holiday shoppers were
buried under their own cares.
“Jacquie!” Now her heart banged against her chest.



Both she and Zaya were crying by the time she hurried back to the bench. In the eyes of the woman she called her friend, Jasmine saw the same unadulterated horror that was in her heart.

“Where's Jacquie?” she screamed at Mae Frances.

Mae Frances shook her head. “She . . . she was . . . right there,” she cried as she pointed back to the store.

But Jasmine didn't bother to turn around. She didn't need to look at the store or anywhere else in the mall. Because in the space inside of her where truth lay, she knew.

As “Joy to the World” squeaked out from the speakers above, Jasmine knew that her daughter was gone.



I did not read this book. I leafed through it, and wasn't impressed by the content - it wasn't extremely bad, but didn't look like something I wanted to read, and does not fall into the class of Christian fiction, so I am just posting the info FIRST blog tours has given to put on my blog.

An Award Won

I won The Versatile Blogger award yesterday, thank you to Annette at A Well-Watered Garden. Due to an extreme lack of desire to blog, read, and many other things, I have not gotten around to doing my part.


The rules for this award is that when you receive this award, you must share seven things about yourself and then pass it on to fifteen blog's you've recently discovered that you enjoy! I am skipping the step of going to each blog to save some time though. :-)
 
Seven things about me huh? Yikes - ok
 
1) I am not bald - I shave my head. Though I shave it because I was losing it anyway.....
2) I play the piano, but due to selling my electric piano, rarely do anymore.
3) My favorite foods are chicken and pizza, and I love Mexican and Chinese food. And Italian. And American.......
4) Southern Gospel music is my favorite genre' of music, with my favorite groups being The Booth Brothers, The Talley Trio, Gaither Vocal Band, Jeff and Sheri Easter, Sisters, The Hoppers,  and Ernie Haase and Signature Sound.
5) I always wanted a brother, but do love the two sisters I have.
6) Most people don't know the real me
7) My favorite attire is blue jeans and a button down shirt, untucked, and either sandals or no shoes at all
 
 
First off is Annette's blog at A Well-Watered Garden. I can return the favor, can't I? :-)
 
Mike Dellosso, one of my favorite authors, at http://mikedellosso.wordpress.com/
 
My friend Kimmy does some book reviews on her blog, The Smug Cloud, and often has giveaways. I have no idea what a smug cloud is, or what a cloud has to be smug about........
 
Molly does book reviews and book giveaways at her blog, Reviews by Buuklvr81.
 
Lena Nelson Dooley, an author, does book reviews with giveaways on her blog, A Christian Writer's World.
 
Winning Readings is a great blog - she posts links to giveaways on other people's blogs, and has helped me out with that several times.
 
Another author, Bradilyn Collins, has an interesting blog, Forensics and Faith
 
And another Annette at Live, Learn, Love.
 
I ran across a blog recently by a 16-year old young man who seems wise beyond his years. And the kid has over 200 followers. Check out Joshua's blog at While I'm Waiting.
 
Relz Reviews is a great book review blog I follow.
 
My friend, Kim Matlock has an interesting blog. She also has a homeschooling blog that if you ask nicely, she may invite you to.
 
International Christian Fiction Writers is a blog run by several authors spread out over the world - an interesting and informative blog to read.
 
I also enjoy a few political blogs:
 
Hot Air.
 
Michelle Malkin.
 
And Big Government.

Dad's Bible

Book Description


Dad's Bible: The Father's Plan is the perfect gift for fathers, fathers-to-be, and father figures of any age. The Dad's Bible is filled with challenging and helpful information designed to encourage and uplift fathers whose lives will be a priceless legacy for generations to come. Whether as a personal purchase, a Father's Day gift, or "just because," Dad's Bible is sure to draw the reader into quality personal time with our Heavenly Father.

I'm not a dad, but decided to review this Bible anyway. This Bible is the New Century Version, which I wasn't crazy about. It isn't a bad version, but I much prefer the New King James and the New Living Translation.

The pages of this Bible are made to look like the pages of an old book, which gives it a neat look.

There are several pages of notes geared for fathers - how they should live, and notes pertaining to raising kids - which are very insightful. This Bible would make a great gift for a father for Father's Day. Robert Wolgemuth did the notes for the Bible, and he did a great job. Even though I have no kids, I could see that this Bible could be a great tool and help to fathers.

WWALD?

No, that doesn't stand for Where's Waldo. :-) It stands for "What Would Al Lacy Do?" And be forewarned, I am getting up on one of my favorite soapboxes again. :-) - so if you don't like my soapboxes, close this page - now.....

If you're not familair with Al Lacy, he is a Christian fiction author who writes stories mostly set in the Old West, and in the last few years has teamed up with his wife to write together. He is the only author that I have had the privelege of meeting, though Karen Kingsbury and Mike Dellosso are dropping by lather this week for tea and input on their next books...... yeah, right. :-)

Anyway, not sure why Al Lacy has been on my mind, but he did come to my mind recently for some reason - maybe brought on by a conversation with my sister, Vicki. I won a copy of Krisitin Heitzman's new book, Indivisble. She is one of Vicki's favorite authors, so I gave her the book. Vicki was commenting that she was a bit disappointed to find some cursing in the book - hell used as a curse word, and not sure if there were others, but she mentioned that one. Incidentally, I think this is the first book the author has done for Waterbrook Publishing, writing previously for Bethany House where she didn't use that type of language. So take from that what you will......

Anyway, it seems too many people aren't bothered by hell being used as a curse word - but what if your toddler talked like that? Your teen? What if your pastor used it in his messages? Sound absurd? Well, so does language like that in a Christian novel - which brings me to Al Lacy:

If you are not very familiar with him, you will not know this. I am familiar with him, and I do know this: for some years, he wrote secular Westerns under other names. He wrote some of the Stagecoach books among others. I read a series by him called "The Badge" series - Westerns about lawmen of the old West - really good books. For the most part, they were curse free, though a few of them did have some - and that, my friends is why Al Lacy quit writing on the secular market. He would turn in his manuscripts, curse-free - and they would come out on the market with curse words in. One of the worst in the Badge series, according to him, was one of the latter titles. I don't remember much about it, but I do remember hell being used as a curse word and the "d" word - both of which are in some Christian novels I have read.

I have always been impressed with him for his stand - its a pretty big thing to write for the secular market, and to turn from that to the smaller Christian market, with no guarantee of success - all because he wanted to write books without cursing in them. Too bad all of the authors in the Christian market don't have that depth of Christian integrity in them - no, some of them are adding them - and defending their use.

So WWALD? If his Christian publisher started slipping curse words in his books - what would he do? I would wager a guess that he would change publishers - and I would also wager that he will never add them on his own.

So, Mr. Al Lacy - my hat is off to you, and you have my admiration for your depth of Christian integrity. Great job.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Deceit by Brandilyn Collins


This week, the



Christian Fiction Blog Alliance



is introducing



Deceit



Zondervan (June 18, 2010)



by



Brandilyn Collins



ABOUT THE AUTHOR:


Brandilyn Collins is an award-winning and best-selling novelist known for her trademark Seatbelt Suspense®. These harrowing crime thrillers have earned her the tagline "Don't forget to b r e a t h e..."® Brandilyn's first book, A Question of Innocence, was a true crime published by Avon in 1995. Its promotion landed her on local and national TV and radio, including the Phil Donahue and Leeza talk shows. Brandilyn is also known for her distinctive book on fiction-writing techniques, Getting Into Character: Seven Secrets a Novelist Can Learn From Actors (John Wiley & Sons). She is now working on her 20th book.

In addition, Brandilyn’s other latest release is Final Touch, third in The Rayne Tour series—young adult suspense co-written with her daughter, Amberly. The Rayne Tour series features Shaley O’Connor, daughter of a rock star, who just may have it all—until murder crashes her world.

ABOUT THE BOOK



Skip Tracer Joanne Weeks knows Baxter Jackson killed his second wife---and Joanne's best friend---seven years ago. But Jackson, a church elder and beloved member of the town, walks the streets a free man.

The police tell Joanne to leave well enough alone, but Joanne is determined to bring Jackson down. Using her skip tracing skills, she sets out to locate Melissa Harkoff, now twenty-two, who lived in the Jackson home at the time of Linda Jackson's disappearance.

As Joanne drives home on a rainy winter night, a hooded figure darts in front of her car. In her headlight beams she glimpses the half-concealed face of a man, a rivulet of blood jagging down his cheek. She squeals to a stop but clips him with her right fender. Shaking, she gets out of her car in the pouring rain. The man will not let her see his face. Before he limps off into the night he warns her not to talk to police.

As Joanne tries to find Melissa, someone seems to be after her. Who was the man she hit on the road. Is Baxter Jackson out to silence her? Or is some other skip she's traced in the past now out for revenge?

If you would like to read the first chapter of Deceit, go HERE

My review:

This wasn't quite as suspenseful in the scary meaning of the word, as some of Brandilyn's other books, but it was an excellent book and an enjoyable read. It was written in both first person and third person, bouncing back and forth in a style that was easy to read and keep track of what was going on.

I found the idea of a "skip tracer" interesting. I had never heard of such a thing until I read this book, so it was cool to learn something new there. As usual, Collins wove a fascinatting and suspenseful tale, with believeable and likeable characters.
I also liked the cover of the book. It really drew me to the book. I was glad I had the opportunity to review this latest book by Collins. I was not disappointed. And she is an author who can spin a scary, suspenseful story, and keep it Christian, and with no cursing, and my hat is always off to authors who do that.

The Ark by Boyd Morrison

It is time for a FIRST Wild Card Tour book review! If you wish to join the FIRST blog alliance, just click the button. We are a group of reviewers who tour Christian books. A Wild Card post includes a brief bio of the author and a full chapter from each book toured. The reason it is called a FIRST Wild Card Tour is that you never know if the book will be fiction, non~fiction, for young, or for old...or for somewhere in between! Enjoy your free peek into the book!



You never know when I might play a wild card on you!





Today's Wild Card author is:





and the book:


Touchstone; 1 edition (May 11, 2010)
***Special thanks to Mallika Dattatreya and Ashley Hewlett of Touchstone/Fireside Publicity, Simon & Schuster, Inc. for sending me a review copy.***



ABOUT THE AUTHOR:






Boyd Morrison is an industrial engineer with ten U.S. patents to his name who has worked for prestigious companies ranging from NASA to Microsoft's X-BOX Games Group and RCA Electronics. He is also a "Jeopardy!" champion and a professional actor who has appeared in commercials, stage plays, and films.



Visit the author's website.






Product Details:



List Price: $24.99

Hardcover: 420 pages

Publisher: Touchstone; 1 edition (May 11, 2010)

Language: English

ISBN-10: 1439181799

ISBN-13: 978-1439181799



AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:




My review:

First off, what I liked about the book: It was very well written, and as far as suspense goes, this book has it. This book was one of those "read in one sitting" books. The plot was really cool - about Noah's Ark, and I really liked the main characters. I have never read anything by this author, but he is an excellent writer, and I thoroughly enjoyed the story and his characters.

However..... I would not classify this as Christian Fiction. From all appearances, it is Christian fiction - after all, Noah's Ark is portrayed as factual throughout the book. But the author does not stick to the Biblical idea of the Ark. Instead of going with a world wide flood of water that destroyed everything, the author had some kind of poison killing the people, and a flood of sorts that spread the poison, and instead of the ark protecting Noah and his family from drowning by the flood, it was to protect them from this poison. Any Christian should have a problem with this view of the Ark and the Flood.

Also... cursing. Unfortunately, some authors writing for Christian publishers are slipping in some, and more unfortunate that some publishers are allowing it, but I would think even the defenders of that would say this book has too many. Any time I read a book that does have curse words, I grab a pen and pad and keep track. Here is the run down for this book:

"D": -  16
"H" -  17
"S" -  5
"B" (female dog) -  6
"B"(illigitmate) - 4
"A" -  4
"P" (urine) - 3

In addition, 10 times God's name is taken in vain, totalling 65 curse words and/or taking God's name in vain.

And one sex scene - though not graphic.

All things considered, even though well written - other than the cursing and wrong view of the flood - I would not recommend this book to Christian fiction readers. I would like to read a book by this author that is curse free and doesn't twist a Biblical story.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

My questions

This might shock those who know me well, but hey, let's be honest - a lot of us have things we secretly wonder about, but don't say it out loud for fear someone will question our Christianity. And maybe some of us don't have questions anything like this. If not..... well, rah for you. :-) Some of these questions play into my struggle to believe God loves me, and is truly a loving God.

Hell. How can a loving God send people to burn in torment forever. Oh yeah, I've heard the trite phrase "God doesn't send them there, they send themselves there because they wouldn't serve him." Etc. That is true, but why not punish them for a certain lenghth of time, then have them cease to exist. It seems vindictive to burn people forever because they didn't do what He wanted them to do. We are expected to forgive people no matter what they do, whether or not they ever ask forgiveness. We can never retaliate, according to God's Word, ever - yet in the end, He is going to burn forever those who wouldn't obey Him. Seems like overkill. If we burned people to death, we'd be called a sadist - yet the God of the universe is going to burn people forever - not just the murderer and child molestor, but decent people whose only sin was to never become a Christian.

Choice. This one may really shock my friends and readers....... but do we really have a choice? Serve God, or burn in hell forever? Seems similar to putting a gun to someone's head and telling them they have a choice - do what they want, or they will blow your brains out. And don't get me wrong - I don't not want to be a Christian - if that came out right.

God helping. I hear it all the time. People thanking God for answering a prayer - healing a loved one, proving for a financial need, then thanking God for caring, proving, loving, etc. - but what about the flip side of the coin - when He doesn't heal, doesn't provide - how can we still say He cares, He provides - we so easily give Him credit when He does what we ask and need, then if He doesn't, does that mean He doesn't care?

God the father. Jesus likened our relationship to God as children to a father a lot. I struggle with this one. So many times, I have needed something, prayed my heart out - and God remained silent. As it seemed I was going down for the third time in an ocean of despair, it almost felt like God was sitting on the shore watching with disinterest - a human father would do more to help his child most of the time, than God does - or so it seems to me.

Why does He let His children suffer so much? Jesus Himself said something like if an earthly father knows how to give good gifts to his children, how much more does God? Yet line real life up to that, and does it hold? I don't have kids, but have 6 nieces and nephews I love to death - if one of them had cancer, God forbid - and I had it in my power to heal it, I would - yet God, who CAN do anything, lets so many of His children suffer.

Struggles. Sure, people get themselves into trouble - addictions to smoking, drugs, etc - but when they genuinely repent, why doesn't God take away the addiction? Why do most people have to struggle with it for the rest of their life? Why is Jesus' blood not enough to wipe out the desire for that addiction?

Defense of God. If God is truly so great and powerful, why do we Christians have to defend Him so much and make excuses. When He doesn't heal - "well, His ways are higher than ours" - etc - I hear it so often. Even when expressing some of my questions to a couple of people, it felt like they were trying to come up with excuses why a loving God doesn't act in ways that help, etc.

So - any thoughts - anyone else out there have questions?